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Wednesday, September 12, 2012

3:30 in the Morning, for Pete's Sake! (Not for the Squeamish)

Just in case the time isn't stamped on my blog entries... yes, I am writing this at 3:30 am.  I have a sick boy, and he's not doing so hot with his bucket.  Therefore, I need to stay awake and guide his precious little head to avoid having to wash/clean even MORE stuff. (plus, I have no sheets on my bed right now, even if I wanted to crash there- wanna guess why?)

I hate it when my kids are sick, but I wonder if all boys are as pitiful as mine at throwing up?

Ok, I'm done with the puke talk, I think

I had a busy weekend- Said Boy(see above) turned 6!  We all went out to dinner on Friday night with Grandma and Grandpa, Saturday was soccer and our dear friends came over, Sunday was our first church service in the new building at The Ridge and then... (sorry, I just had to leave for a bit to take care of my boy, then... I poured another cup of coffee.  This is going to be a long, long night)  on Sunday afternoon, I had my initiation meeting for the Strong, Healthy, Empowered fitness contest!

Last evening (Tuesday evening), we had our first workout time.  We went over how to warm-up.  That seems so simple, but I am overweight, relatively healthy, and I have NO joint/muscle/tendon problems right now.  I think doing warm-ups correctly is going to be key for me- If I do it right and avoid injury, there are no physical limits to what I might be capable of!  Ok, coordination might come in to play with some things, but you know what I mean!

Now, for the confessions... My inner BRAT (Peggy is her name, I've introduced you before) throws fits at routines and responsibilities.

On Friday, I straightened up, wiped up, etc. because we were having company. The house looked pretty good (not great- let's be real).  It's a good thing, because the rest of the weekend wasn't so great.

I have also been lousy at my before bed routine!  I am sitting with my face unwashed, I brushed my teeth at about 4:30 this afternoon, so that doesn't count, my sink is full of dishes, and I have these fruit fly thingies hanging around,  They like to swarm around my freshly-picked tomatoes, and it ticks me right off!  If you have any suggestions for getting rid of these fruit-fly gnat thingies, I'm all ears!  I finally broke down and put the tomatoes in the refrigerator even though I prefer them at room temperature.

I got on here tonight because I was going to adjust the settings to make this blog private- like a personal diary.  I have struggled with keeping it up and public since I failed at posting through the week, but I really NEED this.  I need to keep things out in the open, even though I have no readers at this point.  But, if you know me at all, that's my way of coping- as soon as I start struggling, I want to take things private- draw it all in- so no one can "see" me flailing or failing.  I can see I am going to have to deal with this major issue in the gym, too.  This is serious.  I like myself pretty well, and I don't want to beat myself up, but I have GOT to put myself out there and ask for help, reach out to others, and be vulnerable.  If I keep doing what I've always done, I'm going to GET what I already had.  I want and expect MORE of myself!  So, here I am, and welcome to my never-before-seen-real-live-world!!

There you have it.  It's been 6 days since my last confession- it feels good to come clean!  No apologies, I'm just pushing forward!  No one's perfect.

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